This week marks the first week of health insurance from my new job. I figured this was as symbolic a time as any to pick back up from where I fell off. Boy, did I fall.
It’s all right though. After years of fighting myself on every calorie - I’ve finally learned one big lesson: guilt doesn’t work on me. I don’t want to feel bad every time I look at a dinner menu; I don’t want to feel bad any morning I choose to sleep in. I want to feel healthy and content. So I’m coming back to this blog, and this lifestyle, from a new place. A much less manic place.
I’m excited to make the little, positive choices every day. Packing my own lunch means I don’t scramble to find *whatever* to eat, which will probably be carb-loaded and much to heavy for the middle of my day. My body needs fuel that it can burn - I know this because of how exhausted I get after a heavy lunch. Bringing my gym bag means I can hit the gym right across the street from work before I get on the road home. My motivation tends to drop from 10% to -35% as soon as I open the front door.
I’m excited to take baby steps. Gym three days a week. Cardio, light weights lifting. On off days, I’ll cook a good dinner. On weekends, I’ll start with one hike. I’m excited to invest in hiking boots that I will use.
I have already made the adjustments in my sleep schedule and drinking habits. No alcohol during the work week. Reading before bed. Turning the television off. Simple, smart choices to better prepare myself for the stresses of every day life. With my gluten intolerance and anxiety disorder, I need to start making life easier on myself. Clean living = clean thinking.
I’m ready to embrace my mistakes, and learn from them. Find healthy solutions for my unhealthy “weaknesses.” I’ll do my best to track my trials and tribulations here. Spring is about the right time to try something completely different. I’m excited.